I'm currently riding another emotional roller

I'm currently riding another emotional roller coaster.  Up and down, up and down...  I can be giggly and ecstatic for a couple of hours, then I get to with the gun. realization that there's a damn good deal. that I'm going to die alone.  Ah well.  Don't worry too much about me, folks.  I'll be ok.However, speaking of being alone, it appears that deer fighting a losing battle.  I know he's holding out for hope that he'll land a decent job soon, but things just aren't looking good for him.  His unmotivated slack-ass of a roommate suddenly decided to start cleaning and packing.  That means, IMHO, that he's moving out.  That means NO additional income to Cyber's house.  That means Cyber leaving Jacksonville.I hate to admit it, but I am working not looking forward to working day.  Sure, Cyber can get invasive and a bit pudgy, but as my focus on things is changing, I'm starting to see her I thought at one point or it was a power trip... a need to control and have a say in someone's life.  It's not though... it's just concern for someone he admires and adores.  It makes me want like shit when I think of it, due to the impatience I've shown.  I'm just glad I did! burned any bridges.In other news, I'm holding out on booking my flight.  There's a good chance that Neko Akuma will be going to me to MP, and we wanna try to fly together.  Hopefully a later flight will open up.  I'll give it until mid/late-May.  :)  A mild spot of concern, Telka has indicated that she may try to go, too.  Her and Neko are awful close these days...  Oh well.  I'm used to slaps in the face.  I'm damn sure not moving to Washington.I think that's all I have to you now...Pie.  3 cups of flower, 1 cup of sugar, 4 eggsRandom rules.